Giving it back to you....

Dear God,

Sometimes I just have to be reminded that it is not all up to me, but I am learning. It's a slow process sometimes teaching me. You are  the all knowing and I am here playing a guessing game. I am willing and do trust in you to direct your will for my life, however sometimes subtle hints don't work for me. I am more into Glaring NEON that says " Hey Stupid this WAY" . I know I know you don't work that way but occasionally I do get it without you hitting me on the head. I have been paying more attention. Studying the guide book and well learning what the guide book is saying and no longer holding " a loaded pistol without be taught how to use it." Bishops words not mine... 
 I am aware of the amazing blessings you have given me and the incredible people you have placed in my path all to serve the ultimate plan you have for me. I know what I would like the plan to be, I know what my goals and dreams are. Don't worry you are the Center of it all. I PROMISE.

You have done such amazing things through me already that I can in no way shape or form take credit for. However there are other days when I think I am on the path you have chosen and you throw me a curve ball. I have to ask.... I know you have the ultimate plan but do I really have to enjoy each piece of the journey? Realizing it is all part of the big picture, I get it, but WHEW I could do with out them sometimes. I am not overly worried just weary and tired.

Tonight I believe I will pray for a hedge of love and protection to be wrapped in your loving embrace. To give me the direction I need to fully live a God Centered life and let you continue to guide me gently, or not so gently when I resist to the Will you have chosen for my life. I pray that I can teach my child by example and not because I said so. I pray that you give me the strength to complete the tasks and challenges set before me. With that being said I am tired of this particular burden this evening.  I am Giving it back to you. 

"God's perfect timing" I have heard that phrase more than once from more than one source.. strangly they have never met, so I am only to glean from this that you want to make sure "I GET IT". Check it off the list, sometimes I just need the reminder.

I AM who you want me to be... well I am working on it. If I keep saying it and living it then it will be true. :)

In Jesus name I pray..... Amen